Cornered

It’s almost been a full year of silence.

Silence, yes, but not empty neither uneventful.

In retrospect, a full year of so many things. So many disruptions. The happy ones, and the challenging ones. I am since recovering and coping as much as I can. From both. Yes, too much of a good thing can be disruptive, but mostly unbalancing. And after having succeeded in founding a comfortable zone, I am still reinventing myself and setting the stage for a new episode in my life’s book.

So, I quite dunno where to start actually. And I am a bit ashamed and appalled for such a long hiatus. For letting myself go this much. And sad I got sidetracked from the things I love so much. But from this long and unwished for vacation from writing, I came to realize that I need my blog and my knitting more than I thought I’d do at first, more that I can grasp as well too. And this is a good thing. I think. And second, I did realize that I was posting on Ravelry and on Yahoo Groups in a way much more appropriate and suited for a blog. Further more convincing me of the usefulness of that outlet for my creativity and my many ramblings.

Bottom line, bouts of harsh reality nibbled and eroded my idealist’s view of all things. I don’t feel as funny and as light hearted as I used to be. I feel more adult, more concerned, more responsible, more reasonable. I’m self conscious about exposing the darker side of what’s going on in my knitter’s life, but I cannot pretend that it’s not there. I would be a liar if I wouldn’t.

Cornered. Yes. That is how I feel. I feel better just saying it.

And, thinking about it, it must be related to my mitered corner and short row issues. Life as a way with its lessons… They’re always right under my nose. Cornered! Not for long.

I will get back soon, to talk about my current projects, about the nice workshop I attended this very weekend, about the WIP I succeeded in getting to the FO stage and my ever growing Christmas list.

In conclusion, as long as there will be some knitting… to knit on with solace and might all the while going through life’s little bumps, I should prevail.

PS: One good sign of the newfound wisdom I recently embraced: no more bilingual blog for me, after a full year of ambivalence and angst. If maintaining a translated blog keeps me from having a blog altogether, I prefer to stick to English. No pun intended.